Today, I went to the wrong building
I was redirected
To another building
I went
To that other building
That other fucking building
Who knew it was the wrong building
The wrong fucking building
Hospital beds, non-English speaking receptionist, half-retarded nurses
It was the second building I went to
The second fucking building
The directions were wrong
The floor was wrong
SAY 12TH FLOOR IN ENGLISH, PLEASE, SIR
I walk past a bed
With a sign that said "dirty" on it
A sad face printed below it
Someone had died in that bed
Someone fucking died in that bed
And I looked for the elevator
The fucking elevator
Found a nurse
Stupid nurse
Are you here for a class?
A fucking class.
ARE YOU HERE FOR A CLASS?
A FUCKING CLASS?!?!
I'm here for the eating disorders group.
The weight management class?
THE EATING DISORDERS GROUP
Are you here for a class?
A fucking class.
Forget it.
Stupid fucking nurse
Stupid fucking building
The wrong building
Pass the bed
Someone died in that bed
That fucking bed.
Shut up.
No Smoking
No FUCKING smoking
Smoke
Cry
Fucking cry
Baby
Could you smell the dead person on their sheets?
And you know
It's funny
It wasn't funny then
And it's really no funnier now
But it's certainly a nice way to frame
Difficult words
It's funny
IT'S FUNNY
IT'S FUCKING FUNNY!
Hilarious!
No, stupid.
Fucking stupid
Not that kind of funny
Lean back, deflect, smirk
Grandios disillusion kind of funny
Fake funny
Fake fucking funny
Funny
Fake
Fuck.
Who to call
Who to call?
Someone calls you
Don't call anyone
Is the best advice they roundabout give.
Sort it out in your own head
Need.
Needy, needy need.
Tear stained pile of needy needy
Needy fucking need
Speak to a therapist tomorrow!
Need.
Won't.
Don't need.
Fucking need.
Say a word enough it loses all meaning
And I don't need
Need
It means nothing to me
Don't touch my shoulder I don't need you
Skip said "need" for professional help
Skip Need Twice
Professional help Need would simply tell you
Need
Fucking need
It's OK
To need.
I do not need.
Needy fucking need
Pathetic ball on the stairs lost her way
Need Directions!
Need guidance...
Need a friiiiiiend
Need FOOD
Need water.
Need therapy,
Need medication?
Need Doctors
Need prescriptions*
Need (family)
Need love:
So God Damn needy
I should have known better
Rigid drive home
Pass a building on my left
The building I was supposed to go to
The fucking building
I couldn't find my way there
Until I left
I'm not going back there
Needy.