you know that feeling when you hurt so bad you can't move
I hope not.
i'm not even really that angry at you. i'm not even really that angry at her.
i'm angry because you are the only fuckin person who can make me feel like this, who can make me like this
so pathetic
seriously, so incredibly pathetic.
I am can't sleep can't eat can't think pathetic
i am dropped 15 pounds pathetic
nah not in one night
tonight i've just fallen apart
but i've been breaking
people who love me, they ask me why i'm losing
my cool
weight
sleep
over this shit
they ask me why i'm losing
my mind
strength
pound after pound, night after night
fight after fight
they ask me why i'm losing
and god damn it they're right
this is so stupid
i'm not even angry at you, not angry at her
but seriously, why the hell do i give a shit to this point
of being so dramatic, so pathetic
this is so lame
really fuck you i'm really sick of being this lame
fuck blog privacy
this will be that one entry
i think no one will ever read
and then it'll be read
by everyone
nah, not even, doesn't even need to be everyone
just needs to be you, yeah, you're that person who'd read this
and i'd be like, wow, i'm so stupid, i really should have followed my own rule of keeping my blog light
and private
and evasive
so that one person who reads it
doesn't know who or what i'm talking about
well congratulations!
Today it's you!
Actually most days its you!
And sometimes it's not!
But today it definitely is!
And most days it definitely is!
and you'll probably never read this shit
you never read this shit
but you know, now that i said that you will
I'm going to post this, keep it posted, not delete it
I'M GOING TO BE AWKWARDLY PUBLIC AND IF I AM MAKING ONE OR MORE PEOPLE UNCOMFORTABLE BY DOING SO INCLUDING MYSELF THEN I AM GOING TO MAKE ONE OR MORE PEOPLE UNCOMFORTABLE BY DOING SO INCLUDING MYSELF
and i'm fucking out of my mind nuts and i know you love me. i know
And I really really love you and i'm so fuckin angry
not at you, not even at her
i'm just so fuckin angry that you are the only fuckin person
who can make me feel this way
how's that for a blog entry